
The quiet of August bring ~
crisp light
buzzing
wavy humid heat
roasting days, cool nights.
These changes create a yearning in me for stillness, for pausing, listening, watching it all. I sit to watch the trees and the sky, especially in the early morning and late day. These are the moments when the stillness, the cool breezes and the soft voices of the trees speak loudest.
The quiet is not a silence. There are many ambient sounds, quiet is a feeling sense.
I could tune in, toward the loud buzz of crickets, bees, and neighbors' trucks. Instead, I still myself and listen to the quiet.
I suppose quiet is a rare experience for some. In August, in Vermont, after the exuberance and movement of the planting times, project times, exuberance times, the days of August arrive with slowness, with sumptuousness. Luxury even.
I have notice too that the early migratory birds have moved on to new resting places. I miss these migrants such as the nesting thrush, the cheerful warblers, the exuberant grosbeaks, and the musical, if elusive indigo bunting. I do. I trust their path leads them to the next point of destination. And I turn my attention to who is present now.
In the ambient sounds, I hear the frogs, cricket and bees sing their songs, along with the hummingbirds who are casting for advantage in the defense of sugar. All these sounds and songs fill the airwaves. I also notice that the dragon-flies have multiplied in absence of the Spring birds. Perhaps their presence will help to lower the abundant supply of mosquitoes. One cycle leads to another. One rhythm shifts to a different cadence.
The bears aren't visiting either, or at least not much. I know they have distant blueberry fields on their summer itinerary . Wild and otherwise. They must be sitting in front of loaded berry bushes right now, as I write, with their back paws splayed in front of them, mouths and front paws tucking into the abundance of the season. Indeed, a friend confirmed this fancy recently, when she told me that a "gentle giant" was sitting in her grand-mama's blueberry field whenever she called to check in.

I have been quiet too. Tuning inward. The gentle, soft, sweet summer breezes urge me to do so. It's hard to try anything else. They bring scents complex in their quality both light and delicate. I often sit in my outdoor chair under the apple tree to listen, feel and smell. Today, I notice that the August sun illuminates every corner, bringing out all of the shadows in bold, bright relief. I notice that the heat would be pressing if not for the breezes in the tree-tops, bringing softness, soothing murmurs, sentient sighs. I savor the sound, smell and relief.
I was sitting in my chair like this a couple of weeks ago, when a visitor appeared: she is racoon with bold fearlessness And gentle eyes. She came frequently, and most often during my resting times: early mornings, and late day, just after and just before dusk. The rational and primal part of my brain reacted and worried., thinking, "this is wrong."
The rational fearful rambling in my head said: "She shouldn't be out before dark!"
The primal shrieking: "yikes!! she might hurt me!!"
I began to feel tense whenever I sat outside. I never knew when, but she would frequently poke her nose out from under the yurt while I sat or just as I stepped outside. She seemed pointedly determined to connect with me. She always waited for our eyes to connect before she moved away ~ "Not so close!!!!" I began say to her.
At first, I attempted the hard lines. No access to food, no nothing, no no.
Needless to say, this approach did not help one teeny bit to make me feel safer. Nor to affect her behavour. She still founds ways to peek around a corner and look at me. She still popped her head out from under the yurt. It became uncanny how she knew just when I was about to step outside. At those moments, she would give me a plea with her gentle eyes.
After a few days of comtemplating, I caved in. I explained to her that she scared me when she surprised me, so if she must come to the yurt, please to stay farther away from me, like over there near the bushes. And as a reward, I left a bit of food (don't tell) approximately ten feet from my door.
Remarkably, this dialogue worked. She stopped poking her nose out 12 inches from my stepping foot. She seemed to stay at least 10 feet away from me. I began to relax again, allowing peace to reign once more. Just as I stopped worrying, when I actually forgot about this engagement, when I was standing up to go inside after the sitting before dark, I happened to peek over to the right, over toward the said bushes and there, I saw my reward. Not only was the bold racoon quietly munching on left-over berries and seeds, along with her were four small round balls of fur. Fearless raccoon is a mama raccoon! No wonder the hunger and the urgent plea! She must of been starving while she was nursing these round healthy hoodlums that are now big enough to follow her everywhere.
Oh, the cuteness. I kept to the agreement and also stayed 10 feet away.
My lesson, pause, listen trust. Dialogue and then pause some more
If bothered, pause, ponder and trust again.
In that order.
The answers come. Not in the reactive bracing, but in the quiet, in the breeze.
If bothered, request and pause and the answers will come.
I am glad I caved in and trusted mama raccoon. I love watching this healthy family, watching the young ones grow healthy and wild. I am in awe that she vetted me, and I passed the test.


I apologize for the poor quality of the photos. I took the pictures quickly to avoid bothering them, and from the "10 foot plus distance" we had agreed upon. Blessings for us all.


































